January Hmmmm.

It’s January 10th. I’m sat on the train and on my way back to Leicester. I’ve had a nice Christmas and don’t really want to leave – not the place, just the people.

Anyway, my point is that it’s January 10th. January the 10th and I’m only just deciding my New Years resolutions right here, right now on the train. Oops.

I don’t usually make concrete resolutions, I’m pretty easy on myself, but I’ve got to make them and stick to them this year!

Begin, shall I?

Climb girl, climb.

On my return to uni, I am purchasing my insurance card which allows me to join the climbing club, then I can climb regularly and hopefully gain more confidence, strength and technique. I’m afraid of falling, but the more confidence I get on the wall, the less I fear the height and the falling part becomes less likely to happen.

#HealthyGoals

This resolution just involves sticking to my healthy eating habits no matter where I am – maybe it will help others around me eat a little better too?

Less sugary temptations, more fruits and nuts!

Balancing the pounds

The pounds I refer to here are of the financial kind. I need to try my best to only buy necessities and just treat myself once in a while.

Easier said than done, but one of those money box challenges may help me save.

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I must go to bed earlier, Netflix less and avoid napping during the day. Or just go to bed earlier.

Stress less

About everything. Maybe organising myself as much as possible will help, the more sleep certainly will too.

I shall focus on less things at once, tackling things one at a time, whatever they are, will certainly make life easier. It may also help me focus more.

That’s all of my New Years resolutions, or at least what I can think of right now!

I’m looking forward to climbing more and becoming stronger because of it.

I look forward to seeing the ones I love again soon, sucks being away from your favourite people.

Until next time,

XOXO

Hannah.

#TheStruggleIsReal: Winter Skin

Aloha! It’s been a while and as most of you know, I have moved to university. This experience has been time-consuming, stressful and mentally draining – it is the sole reason for my lack of posts.

Since moving here everything has been about reading and essays, meaning that I haven’t had as much time to myself as I would like (apart from the time that I visited home for the weekend and it was lovely) and all this moving around (plus cold weather, plus general stress) has caused my skin to self-destruct – and I mean worse than usual.

This could have been down to moving and hormones, but the weather certainly didn’t help, it caused my skin to get very pimply and dry. I couldn’t let it stay like this as it was really starting to put me down and I had to wear make-up to cover it – something I hate doing.

With this in mind, I started getting testers of various skin products to find the root of my problem. I went to Origins because I am a regular user of the “Checks and Balances Frothy Face Wash”, where I picked up testers for the “Zero Oil Cleanser” and “Zero Oil Lotion”.

These products started off by clearing up my spots and after a week the effects had reversed, leaving my skin worse than it was before! The cleanser didn’t feel like it was cleaning my skin enough, but the moisturiser was good – it really was “Zero Oil” and kept my skin matte for most of the day, but in the end it just made my skin really dry.

After these products quite literally blew up in my face, I opted for something familiar and headed to BareMinerals where I decided to retry  the “Purely Nourishing Moisturiser for Combination Skin”. I used this for around 2 weeks, my skin didn’t react to it at all, but I came to the conclusion that this is a summer skincare only option for my skin type. I had already purchased it because it really is a dependable moisturiser, just not for me in the winter.

Once again, I was back to square one and decided to use something I already had for the time being and also start using night cream again. I had some of my trusty Nivea “Night Regenerating Cream” left, so I used that along with The Body Shop “Vitamin E Aqua Boost Sorbet”.

I remembered how much I loved the smell of the Vitamin E products, which led me to browse the entire Vitamin E line on the Body Shop website. After looking at countless reviews of various products, I decided that I wanted to try out a new night cream, seeing as night cream is something that’s usually a safe option for my troublesome skin.

I didn’t buy the products online, I kept browsing products for a week or so and went into the store to purchase. While in the store, a girl insisted that the toner would be a good addition to my purchase, along with an overnight treatment oil and I decided to try them out as I was already getting something new anyway and rarely used toners and treatments. In total, I purchased the “Vitamin E Nourishing Night Cream”, “Vitamin E Overnight Serum-In-Oil” and the “Vitamin E Hydrating Toner”.

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The difference in my skin was noticeable within a week, my skin was hydrated and my spots were reducing. I have finally discovered a skincare line that actually works with my skin, one that doesn’t make it worse and since using these products, I have gone back for more from the Vitamin E line. It turns out that the “Vitamin E Aqua Boost Sorbet” wasn’t working as well as I thought it was and it was actually too harsh on my skin, it just took products that didn’t hurt my skin to realise what was doing the damage.

I now own most of The Body Shop Vitamin E range, the “Vitamin E Moisture Cream” replaced the “Aqua Boost Sorbet”, I also got the “Vitamin E Face Mist” to see what all the fuss was about and so far I can see the appeal, it’s very refreshing.

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All-in-all, I’m loving the Vitamin E range from The Body Shop and I think it will be my staple skincare range from now on. It rescued my skin from whatever winter/stress induced hell it was in.

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I will most probably be separately reviewing these products to help others figure out which ones are best for their skin too. If anyone else suffers from sensitive skin that loves to react and break out – I seriously suggest trying out this range.

Until next time,

XOXO,

Hannah.

When The Days Feel Like Weeks…

This current stage of my life is the most awkward so far. Usually, I have a purpose, something to keep my focus on — this could be professionally or personally — but right now there’s nothing.

I am playing the waiting game and it feels never ending. By this waiting game, I mean in between knowing my options and waiting for my exam results. All of my exams results and certificates should be through by this coming Thursday, but I’d be lying if I said I was handling this well.

The people around me have noticed it (although that isn’t many people most of the time as everyone is very busy), I haven’t been myself, I can’t stop stressing about it and it’s causing me to get angry over the most stupid things. This stress is affecting me in regards to my energy and appetite, it’s causing me to eat crap and although it’s had no effect on my weight, it’s making me feel crap inside.

I miss going out and enjoying myself, but I am rarely in the mood to leave the house because I’m too worried about what my future holds to think about right now.

It feels like I’m the only one left waiting for my results which leaves me to fear that even if I do get the results I want that it may be first come first serve and that I may still be left without my desired place.

I’m not sure exactly how it works and maybe that’s why I’m worrying about this more than I should, but I honestly don’t know if I am. I have worked so hard to get here and I don’t know if I can handle any more disappointment that I have recently received.

For anyone reading this, I apologise for being so depressing, but in order to let go of some of this stress and worry, I need to share it. The more I share on here, the less it’s bottled up in my mind and maybe it will help me take back a little bit of my sanity — if there’s any left.

With less than a week to go, I will try to get out of the house more and take my mind off of it until it’s here.

Wish me luck!

XO

Hannah.

Pack Up Your Troubles

My idea of packing is procrastinating by becoming re-acquainted with all of the belongings that had slowly lost their use, but still meant enough to me to hoard over the years until now.

I am a naturally reflective person anyway, but when it comes to digging up everything in the room that I have grown up in it also makes me rather sad also. I feel like this is the end of an era, I am letting go of the past, but keeping my memories. This is not only a time to de-clutter and minimise the amount of belongings I have, it is also a time to tidy up my emotions; As I let go of things that I have held onto for many years for the wrong reasons, I am also letting go of those memories attached.

Obviously I will keep many things with high sentimental value, but I must also remember that the memories don’t necessarily live within those objects unless I let them, they live in my mind. It’s time to let go of anything that I am holding onto because I think it is a memory and realise that it truly is just an object.

My packing strategy is simple; I am keeping the things of high importance, luckily many things that hold sentimental value to me are conveniently the right size to fit in my diary — which has expanded in size profusely!

I try on all of my clothes and if in that moment I don’t feel comfortable in it, I know it isn’t something I will wear in the future and for that reason it goes straight in the boot sale pile.

As for books, I am not getting rid of any, I have sorted what is going to uni and what isn’t by matching the books to the moods I may feel while I am away or if the book would possibly be educational to me during my course.

I haven’t actually gotten much packing done due to the fact that anything else seems more interesting to me when I have something that needs to be done.

Part of my procrastination may be due to hunger or boredom, but a bigger part of me is doing this because I am saying goodbye to the house I grew up in and I am doing this slowly.

It feels like everything is changing all at once and I’m not quite sure what to focus on precisely. Both parents are moving/have moved, I’m not in the best place socially right now and I’m about to head to uni (which is a whole lot harder when you still don’t know exactly where you are going).

I cannot quite pinpoint exactly what is stressing me out the most, but I know that soon enough everything will be happening all at once and there will be no time to focus on one single thing.

It feels like I’m in some kind of weird limbo where part of me is waiting for things to happen and the other part of me is afraid of everything that’s right around the corner. I don’t know which way is up and that’s why I’m choosing a Netflix coma over any sort of reality — until my own reality hits me in about a month’s time.

This post is probably rather vague and I hope you’re all just as confused as my emotions are right now.

Until next time (hopefully sooner than later),

XOXO

Han.

Beauty: Coming Soon To BareMinerals – Blemish Remedy Acne-Clearing Foundation

As some of you already know, I went to LA back in March and while I was there (as well as all the exploring) I did some shopping.

I was on a mission for BareMinerals as I am already loyal to their products and knew I could get them cheaper while in the U.S. What I didn’t know was that there would be a few exclusive products that weren’t available in the UK.

I discovered two products that I knew I couldn’t get back home.

One of the products was a miniature version of the BareSkin Perfecting Veil in Light/Medium, this came with a miniature brush and both products came in their own little clear BareEscentuals bag.image

The second product was like a dream come true for me. Anyone that has followed my previous posts will know that I have very difficult and sensitive skin, it reacts to so many products and that’s one of the main reasons that I trust BareMinerals. My skin doesn’t reject BareMinerals because the products are natural, no matter how many products I try, I always end up going back to trusty BareMinerals!

After discovering that this next product existed I was in awe. As a girl with spot-prone skin, when I discovered that there was in fact a BLEMISH REMEDY FOUNDATION, I lost it. After doing a colour test I found that I was (of course) the lightest shade ‘Clearly Porcelain 01’. I went to purchase it, only to find that my shade was out of stock and naturally I tried to get the next shade up, also unavailable. This was just my luck.

The assistant then tried another colour test and discovered that the third shade ‘Clearly Cream 03’ actually fit my skin tone also. I then purchased this product and was over the moon with my new * ~ MaGicAl FoUnDaTiOn ~ * It wasn’t until getting home and doing a little research that I realised I should have purchased way more while I had the chance.

It turns out that the foundation was not only exclusive to the U.S. but it was exclusive to Sephora. Even the U.S. BareMinerals doesn’t stock it!

When I got back home I wanted to try Complexion Rescue as it had just released to UK stores, so I went to my local BareMinerals within Debenhams to get a tester (this was a liquid and I wanted to make sure my skin was ok with the product prior to purchasing). After I got my tester, I showed the woman at the BareMinerals stand the products that I picked up in the U.S.

About a week or two later after trying and loving Complexion Rescue, I went back to buy it. The woman was excited to see me and tell me the just the day before, her manager had shown her that the Blemish Remedy Foundation is a product that will be released to the UK soon! She didn’t know exactly when, but I’m sure after the hype of Complexion Remedy dies down, it will be time to unveil Blemish Remedy to the UK stores.

I’m so glad that I got to try the product before it had even released to the UK, because I know that I love it already. I have the product in the ‘Clearly Cream 03’ shade, but as soon as it is released I will get my true shade of ‘Clearly Porcelain 01’.

I can’t wait for this to hit the UK and would recommend the product to anyone with acne prone skin.

What exactly is it?

It is a loose powder foundation, it comes in a different pot to your usual BareMinerals foundations. The foundation is released through a mesh-type layer, this minimises wasting of the product and keeps you from putting too much on your face.

If you have previously tried the Blemish Remedy powder solution, this foundation is basically an advanced version of that as a foundation. It does what it says in the name, it is an acne clearing foundation!

For anyone else that has already tried Blemish Remedy Foundation – What did you think of it?

I shall discuss my thoughts on Complexion Rescue soon.

XOXO

Hannah.

I got this.

Okay, there truly is no need for my incredibly crappy eating habits. The past week I have been steering clear from any chocolate and biscuits, and guess what? I haven’t died.

I try to stay away from chocolate when I can anyway as it destroys my skin and anyone who knows me knows that.

A weird thing has been happening since last week though. As I sort of caught up on a bit of sleep my body started to crave fruit and when I got my hands on some it felt great. I have decided that I am going to get into the habit of wanting to eat fruit, crave that instead of crap. It will benefit me profusely and will probably result in me having more energy too. Bonus! I can then have the energy to get my butt to the gym and become a better version of myself.

There is no downside to this plan. Obviously I will still treat myself, but it will be on rare occasions. At the end of the day, I only feel good about eating chocolate while i’m eating it. The aftermath of eating sugary food always leaves me feeling crap anyway and thats no fun!

So that’s what was on my mind. Pretty random, but there you go.

Love, love, love,

Han.

XOXO

Goodbye 2014 & Resolutions

This year, to say the least has been an experience.

I have loved the wrong people too much and the right people not enough. I have cared too much, not focused on my own needs enough and lost myself along the way.

The months leading up to the New Year I have done a lot of soul searching, discovered that I do want to go to university, accepted and let go of a relationship – but not a friendship. I have come to find that sometimes things just aren’t meant to be and it may take a little time for it to sink in, but it always does. Overcoming a situation that I thought was impossible has helped me let go of a lot of negativity and I am so ready to discover what 2015 has to offer me.

I am going to start the new year with some resolutions that I will (hopefully) stick to;

1. Think positive — This year is only going to run smoothly if I am optimistic about everything, the less negativity, the better end result I will get. Think happy thoughts and happy things will happen!

2. Kick these terrible eating habits! — One week I am eating next to nothing, the week after I am having too much junk food, the week after its no sugar at all and my body just wants to shut down. It’s time to get healthy again and make my body feel better. No more ill Hannah!

3. Gym!!! — My god, have I been slacking recently! I will blame this one on Christmas break and leave it at that. January begins and I will be hitting that gym, no more paying for a membership and not using it!

4. Bye, bye alcohol! — Think one won’t be easy and I do not mean quitting alcohol all together (that’s just silly, I am a student). This means a lot less, less of everything (clubbing and drinking). It will not only benefit my health, but also my purse.

5. Love the one’s that love you back — It’s easy to love people too much, but if you aren’t getting that love in return any more, then it’s wasted. I will not waste my time and energy anymore. I will also not waste any time hating people. What’s the point? If I don’t like someone or they don’t like me, I will leave them to it.

So that’s that.

I wish everyone the best, have a lovely New Year.

I love all of you,

See you next year!

XOXO

Hannah.

Beauty: Back to bareMinerals?

As many of you know, I try not to wear make up as much as possible, I just feel so fake and hate the way it feels on my skin.

As you also may know, my skin goes through good and bad stages and when it’s bad, it’s really bad and makes me feel absolutely crap.

When my skin is really bad and I need to go to work or out of the house, I do try to cover up a bit and for this I use the Bourjois Paris Healthy Mix Serum (in 51) — which I love and there is nothing wrong with it, but sometimes I prefer the way bareMinerals felt on my skin. Although the Healthy Mix Serum is light (and smells delicious) it can go oily after a while as it is a liquid, this isn’t really a problem for me as I carry the Healthy Balance Unifying Powder (52) with me for when this happens, but I don’t want to have to keep applying more crap to my face and with bareMinerals it took a lot less effort.

Back when I used to use bareMinerals I didn’t have a problem with it, it was more an issue of using the wrong moisturiser. My skin did not get along with the bareMinerals Purely Nourishing Moisturiser and this not only affected the way my skin felt, but the overall accuracy of the loose powder foundation.

Now that I know which moisturisers work for me, I feel it’s time to give the ol’ BM another go. It was super easy to apply, I didn’t need to use much and it took a lot less time in the mornings. Instead of opting for the Original Foundation (in Fairly Medium) I think i’ll give the Matte one a go as it may be better suited for my Combination and sometimes Oily skin.

I have done my research and this may be it for me, I will still use my Healthy Mix Serum and others that work for me such as the Mac Face and Body.

However, there are a few that I will steer clear of, ones that I probably shouldn’t have splashed out on right away. One that didn’t work for me were Nars Sheer Glow (in Gobi) was way too much for my skin, it was just cakey and suffocating on my delicate façade.

A foundation that I haven’t completely sworn off was the L’Oreal Paris Nude Magique Eau De Teint, it was a little too oily for my liking but did depend on the state of my skin at the time (probably down the again, the wrong moisturiser).

I also want to give the bareMinerals READY To Go Complexion Perfection Palette, but we will get to that later.

All-in-all, from my experience the only solution for my skin is less stress, less sugar and more water (if only there was a magic spell for removing all stress from one’s life).

I will do an update on my decision when I have returned to bareMinerals and have used the product for at least one month.

Love y’all,

XOXO

Hannah.

Things I learned from Fangirl

After reading Fangirl (written by Rainbow Rowell) I feel I learnt a few things about life and also that it’s a great book that everyone should read, young or old.

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Family is family no matter what;

No matter what shit you go through with your family, when it comes down to the important stuff you or them will always come to the rescue. That’s the thing about family, the love is always there wether we choose to show it or not.

When Cath and Wren go through rough patches and months of not talking, they are always brought back together by something important.

These important things keep them from parting to the point of no return and show that no matter what has happened, they are sisters and thats a strong enough bond to survive anything.

Growing up is optional;

Yes, to a certain extent we all have to grow up and mature, but that doesn’t mean letting go of things that we have loved through our childhood.

Cath writes Fanfiction about the Simon Snow book/film series and continues it to a certain extent throughout her college life, she goes through a lot of writers block and self-doubt about her fiction writing course, but her Fanfiction helps her through in the end.

Finishing her Simon Snow story before the Author published her book was keeping her from focusing on her work, she needed to complete her Fanfic before she could focus her mind on other work.

This doesn’t mean that fanfic is over for her, I think she will always do it, but not to the extent that she did with her Carry On Simon.

It’s ok to be a little weird;

Being normal is boring and if I were normal I would probably have already completely lost my mind.

It’s ok to have little quirks, they are what make you, you.

Everyone has things that they go crazy for that they can’t explain, everyone has their obsessions and without them we would all just be empty shells, with no personality, no differences and we would all be the same.

The things we desire in people are their differences, so it’s more than ok to be different, it’s necessary.

There was one thing about Cath’s character that made me feel a little less crazy and that was her battles with anxiety. I saw a lot of myself in some of the moments where she had social anxiety and didn’t go to the dining hall for ages, so she was living on protein bars.


This book is awesome and I recommend it to everyone.

Buy it here.

Love you all,

XOXO

Hannah.

 

Reviewing empties: Bioderma vs. Garnier

As I was going through my stuff and throwing things out I came across an almost empty bottle of the Garnier Cleansing Micellar Water, I decided to bin the very last bit and continue using Bioderma instead and here’s why.

After months of careful consideration and switching from bottle to bottle I have found that Bioderma is the winner, don’t get me wrong Garnier is the closest thing to Bioderma when looking at all the other micellar waters, it is also the cheapest alternative.

If you do not have the money to spend on Bioderma, I would still highly recommend using Garnier’s version, but I did notice a few differences.

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Pros of Garnier;

  • Still removes make-up just as well as Bioderma.
  • When removing lipstick, micellar water doesn’t taste horrible.

Cons of Garnier;

  • Skin doesn’t feel as fresh as it does with Bioderma.
  • Use a little too much and it begins to form face-wash-like bubbles on your face.
  • When removing eye make-up it does sting slightly (this might be why they released an eye make-up remover along with the micellar water).

Pros of Bioderma;

  • Leaves skin feeling clear and fresh.
  • Doesn’t sting when removing eye make-up.
  • Rarely forms bubbles when using a large amount of the product.

Cons of Bioderma; 

  • When removing lipstick or other lip products, the solution tastes rather foul.

I would still happily use Garnier if I didn’t have any Bioderma. Both of these solutions are great and do the job, and they both don’t cause breakouts.

If you want to buy either of these Garnier is available here and Bioderma is available rather cheap here at Escentual.

Now that Bioderma is available from Escentual I will be trying the other versions and have actually already tried the Bioderma Sebium H2O for Combination/Oily skin as I got it when purchasing all my other bottles in Paris back in March.

Hope this post is useful to many of you, I know it’s taken a while, but I needed to be sure of my decision.

Bioderma wins!

Love you all,

XOXO

Hannah.