Ever feel like you put so much effort into something and get nothing back? That’s how I feel after this month and I am now in fear that I am doing the same for this upcoming month too.
Those of you that have me on social media sites will know that I’ve been in a bad mood all week and it’s because I am trapped right now.
I had been counting down for the end of the month, put that date on a pedestal as it were the answer to my problems, because initially it was.
The end of the month was supposed to be the end to my financial difficulty and instead it appears I have worked all month for nothing.
While waiting for a miracle to happen I have been trying to take my mind off this issue with my final major project at college.
I had this idea to analyse the way music makes us feel, how we have specific emotions linked to songs that act almost as a soundtrack to a particular memory. Focusing on this idea has kept me in my own little world, that and my Netflix addiction, which is at an all time high!
While I feel angry, betrayed and exhausted from working for nothing, I know I need to focus on all the positives.
Positivity is key and I have a lot to look forward to. I have university, where is a question of the outcome of my upcoming exams — this is more stress, but I will have a university to go to regardless of my results, thanks to a lucky unconditional offer to fall back on.
I finished Paper Towns and will probably be reviewing that soon and discussing my view on how they are adapting this to the screen.
I have managed to watch almost FIVE SEASONS of The Vampire Diaries which I started watching just before I went to LA at the start of March. Although I am busy, I may have replaced sleep with Netflix to get to where I am in the programme. I am doing this for a reason and that reason is to get up to date in order to write about it for the online magazine in which I write for.
I am not sure what I am going to do about my current financial situation because I am quite frankly struggling now and it’s infuriating as I put all my time and energy in for practically nothing.
So that’s where I’m at right now, just thought I’d update you before I post about other various things!
If anyone else is struggling with the same situation as me, I suggest you focus on the positives too and remember that you’re letting them win if they’re getting you down!
Peace out my darlings,