Hello old friend.

The past few weeks I have been getting really nasty migraines and they have been getting worse and worse as the month progresses. Having these migraines have left me feeling very worn down and unable to function properly when I really need to.

It wasn’t until Saturday, when I had an actual real day off (no college, no work, no social engagements — at least until the evening) that I realised how important it was to get a decent night’s sleep every now and again.

On Friday night I basically passed out from the pain of my migraine from 4pm-8pm and then was awoken by a phone call from my friend, right after the phone call I fell straight back to sleep again and didn’t wake up until about 8am (ish) the next morning. My migraine wasn’t completely gone but it felt amazing to have had over 8 hours sleep and I wish I could do it more often, sadly there just aren’t enough hours in the day.

Sometime soon I will get into a relatively normal sleep routine and it will really pay off, as for right now I am still trying to find that perfect balance — which is very hard when your mind is constantly spinning at a million miles a minute.

In order to find this perfect balance I need to be able to get a fair amount of college work done, read a few books, blog more, vlog more, sleep more and work (all whilst actually enjoying myself and going out once in a while, instead of being in a very intense relationship with my Netflix account).

Love you all and until next time, Goodnight.




Beauty: Back to bareMinerals?

As many of you know, I try not to wear make up as much as possible, I just feel so fake and hate the way it feels on my skin.

As you also may know, my skin goes through good and bad stages and when it’s bad, it’s really bad and makes me feel absolutely crap.

When my skin is really bad and I need to go to work or out of the house, I do try to cover up a bit and for this I use the Bourjois Paris Healthy Mix Serum (in 51) — which I love and there is nothing wrong with it, but sometimes I prefer the way bareMinerals felt on my skin. Although the Healthy Mix Serum is light (and smells delicious) it can go oily after a while as it is a liquid, this isn’t really a problem for me as I carry the Healthy Balance Unifying Powder (52) with me for when this happens, but I don’t want to have to keep applying more crap to my face and with bareMinerals it took a lot less effort.

Back when I used to use bareMinerals I didn’t have a problem with it, it was more an issue of using the wrong moisturiser. My skin did not get along with the bareMinerals Purely Nourishing Moisturiser and this not only affected the way my skin felt, but the overall accuracy of the loose powder foundation.

Now that I know which moisturisers work for me, I feel it’s time to give the ol’ BM another go. It was super easy to apply, I didn’t need to use much and it took a lot less time in the mornings. Instead of opting for the Original Foundation (in Fairly Medium) I think i’ll give the Matte one a go as it may be better suited for my Combination and sometimes Oily skin.

I have done my research and this may be it for me, I will still use my Healthy Mix Serum and others that work for me such as the Mac Face and Body.

However, there are a few that I will steer clear of, ones that I probably shouldn’t have splashed out on right away. One that didn’t work for me were Nars Sheer Glow (in Gobi) was way too much for my skin, it was just cakey and suffocating on my delicate façade.

A foundation that I haven’t completely sworn off was the L’Oreal Paris Nude Magique Eau De Teint, it was a little too oily for my liking but did depend on the state of my skin at the time (probably down the again, the wrong moisturiser).

I also want to give the bareMinerals READY To Go Complexion Perfection Palette, but we will get to that later.

All-in-all, from my experience the only solution for my skin is less stress, less sugar and more water (if only there was a magic spell for removing all stress from one’s life).

I will do an update on my decision when I have returned to bareMinerals and have used the product for at least one month.

Love y’all,



It’s time

There are some things that are out of my control, like the speed a letter can arrive or teleportation and I need to stop fretting over these things and just get on with it.

It’s time to focus on me, get my shit together and gain inner strength.

If I cannot love myself, how can I expect another to love me and even if they do, it would surely impact them to see me in a more positive light.

It’s time for me to be selfish, focus on my own goals and create a mindset that involves less negativity.

I shall start by reducing my sugar intake. I know that eating the amount of sugar that I have is the root to why my skin is so bad, so why do I choose to ignore that fact and sabotage myself? Enough of this, with the amount of drinking that I do, I certainly don’t need to destroy myself in other ways too.

This takes me to my next step which is to actually, like — really reduce my drinking. I have actually done really well this month and have only gone out once so far, if I could just stick to this every month it will not only benefit my liver but also my purse!

Once I find a good balance and eventually regain the energy levels that I have been lacking recently I can start going to the gym regularly again. I know that having no energy is no excuse for lack of exercise but I have literally been feeling like the life has been taken out of me, run down and unable to function. Once I get out of this funk (which may involve a change in diet) I can start gymming regularly again and actually enjoy it!

I am already on the right track to being in the right frame of mind, I am still going crazy over things that are completely out of my control and I feel destroyed inside, but focusing on everything else is really helping.

Focusing on College work and applying for University has really taken my mind off things and if I stick to this not only will my grades be better, but I will have made a real start progressing to University too. Yes, I will still feel destroyed inside, but I will have other things to focus on and when the time comes I will gain clarity of the things that are really messing with my head as of present.

This is basically a huge to-do list of how to fix myself for the better, it will only work if I stick to it and my life will better because of it.

Sometimes you have to wait for things, but theres no point in moping around and wasting precious time. I am not getting any younger, time is still turning and I cannot put my future on hold, if anything this is the push that I need.

If it’s meant to be, it will be and I will just have to wait and see what happens.

Peace & Love,



BRB losing my mind

I have been pushed to the limit, stretched too far.

There are only so many thoughts and feelings that a person can have before their brain goes into overdrive. My mind is frazzled and my body exhausted.

All of these things playing on my mind are causing me migraines and I need clarity.

I want things to go my way and work out, I want the ability to focus and get everything straight.

I have so much to do, things to pay off, deadlines and a very confused heart.

Someone give me the power to freeze time so that I can hibernate for a few weeks and recharge mentally and physically.

I cannot focus if I am worrying about the future and I cannot work on my future if I am not focused.

So basically, I have come to the conclusion that I need to be Wonderwoman and I need superpowers in order to survive this mess challenge that we call life.




Get your shit together Han.

Today we took down my single bed that I have had for years and built my new double bed that I bought sometime before my holiday and made sure that it was delivered when we got back.

Putting a double into my room meant battling the mess that it had become. I honestly don’t know how I let my room get that bad, but it did have a little to do with denial and the fact that I got a lot of my stuff back all at once and didn’t want to deal with any of it.

I put off tidying everything for so long that I had developed a skill for tip toeing around the only showing bits of carpet and managing to dodge every tiny thing that I could possibly stub my toe on.

Enough was enough and ordering this bed was the wake up call that I needed, it forced me to deal with everything and I am so glad that I did.

Hopefully now that my room is clear, my mind will be a little clearer too and I will be able to focus on getting back in the gym and reading through my growing pile of books.

So many books were purchased these last few months and I am so excited to read all of them, I am currently reading Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell and I love it, after reading Fangirl and now this, I need to buy the other two books that she has written!

I want to start Vlogging eventually, that’s one thing on my to-do list.

I have also been flirting with the idea of writing a story (possibly short, maybe a novel) and posting it chapter by chapter. It’s just an idea at this point, but something that I am definitely considering.

Anyway, this has been a little post about bits and bobs going on in my mind and I hope I haven’t put you to sleep.

Feel free to comment to me about what’s on your mind or give me feedback on any of these ideas that I am having.

Love ya,



ASOS Summertime Sales!

Hi guys,

As most of you know (if you have me on Facebook/Twitter/Instagram) I have been going a little crazy on the summer bikini shopping, I go on holiday next week so I stocked up using the ASOS website.10423299_10203492294082561_4370838793777825773_n

I bought this bikini in the current ASOS sale that is on, I liked it so much and it fit me so perfectly that I purchased another one in a different pattern.

There are still many more that I have my eye on, but I may hold off for a bit and buy these ones for after my holiday, that way I can buy them in their next big sale which is the 70% off sale starting July 8th!


This sale is focused on their summer products and i’m sure i’ll end up with a whole new summer wardrobe!

Happy Shopping guys!



Posting from the gym

Yes, you read that right, I’m at the gym and I am going to be here a lot more as of next week.

As soon as I get that blender I will be throwing myself right into this health kick, until then I will do what I can do, which is gym lots and stay away from naughty food!

Whenever I come in here I am surrounded by people that are already fit and it’s imtimidating, I want to be one of them, I want people I come into the gym and feel as intimidated as I do when they see me.

I need I do my research and stick to a routine. This isn’t going I be easy, but it will be rewarding.

It’s time I focused on me and not let other people control my feelings.

I am not going to let my feelings hold me back, I am going to focus on me until I am in a good place, then I will worry about my feels towards particular others.

Not only am I going to be healthier, but I’m also going to continue with that big clear out! I need to stop hoarding everything, be heartless and just throw stuff out.

Once everything is clear, maybe life will become a little clearer too.

Adios amigos,



What’s to come…

Recently I have been clearing out my room and that includes clearing out all the old products that I don’t use anymore.

For the next few posts I will be sharing all of my old products with you and giving my reasons for why these products are no longer for me.

The first product post will be up later this evening, so keep an eye out!

Until later…



Beauty: The Perfect Primer!

As you may have read previously, I have recently had to change most of my skin care range due to what can only be described as an allergic reaction.

I wasn’t that fussed about getting another primer, but as my skin was accepting the Nivea creams I decided to try it out. Everything was half price in Superdrug when I purchased them so I had no reason not to!

Usually I opt for sensitive skin products, but having tried the day cream from Nivea in a normal/combination, I thought it would be best to match the rest of my purchases to that skin type too.


So I purchased the Nivea Daily Essentials Express Hydration Primer, I didn’t want to review this until I was sure of my opinion and now I am.

The texture is similar to a gel-like moisturiser, seems oily, but really isn’t.


As I apply the primer to my face it sinks in instantly, there is no waiting around and I can apply foundation instantly.

I use this primer almost everyday, sometimes apply tinted moisturiser if my skin isn’t looking great, but usually don’t wear any foundation unless I am going on a night out or to an important event.

The fact that the pot is glass makes it feel a lot more expensive than it is and the lid doesn’t loosen in my bad, thus preventing it from leaking in my makeup bag!


I like to use either the Nivea Cremé or the Light Moisturising Day Cream underneath the primer, especially if I am wearing the primer with no foundation.

Couldn’t praise this primer enough, it is so cheap and available everywhere, I strongly recommend trying it as you may never go back!




Beauty: More Nivea reviews will be up soon

Just a quick update of what’s to come;

I tried a variety of new Nivea products over the past month and will be reviewing them very soon.

My experience with the majority of this skincare range has been brilliant and I can’t wait to share my favourites with all of you!